dreams

I've been having some freaking weird dreams lately. Last night I only remember bits and pieces of but a recurring theme is traveling in cities. I'll keep going to different places and seeing/meeting up with different people within a short amount of time. I'll also start talking to somebody I know and they'll turn into someone I don't (their physical characteristics will change)

There's no way that these dreams have no significance. I'm getting sick of the country and ready to go back to Btown.



stuck.

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reflections

sorry it's been a while. I didn't feel like I had anything to say for a while but right now I feel the need to spill my heart out to you.

The summer is nearing to the end and like all endings come beginnings. I find myself reflecting during these times much more than often, especially when I'm home. I want to go into my second year of college with a little more mental organization and cautiousness. My first year of college I experienced basically everything I possibly could, and now this time it will be different. Different but good. I want to have a little more self-discipline, and it's not like I'm completely out of control but I want to like the person I am and feel happy about my position in life. Sometimes it's easy to forget how fortunate we are to have the friends we have and the lifestyles we live. I want to take every opportunity that college offers and keep writing songs as much as possible, even though I know that will never stop. Sometimes I feel like I can't stop thinking and at times it's a good thing, but it gets really tiring. I feel like I'm getting older and some things are getting easier, and some are not. Everyone deals with the responsibility of living up to the expectations of the people around them. They are expected to act a certain way or do certain things because they have done/acted that way in the past. We show people who we are by expressing ourselves, and people expect consistency. To me, that sounds so ridiculous. Which is why I am lucky to have people in my life who accept who I am and who enjoy my company because I am who i am. 

I wish I had lots of money. haha. that would make everything so much easier.

much love