I find myself constantly looking for the answer. trying to make sense of EVERYTHING all the time, and I've come to realize that that's just the way I am. But isn't it supposed to be like that? If we aren't trying to grow, or create new ideas, then what's the point? 

My question is why, more recently, have I become more and more hungry for the answers, more impatient, and more upset about it... It's not a self-realization thing, but at the same time it totally is. I could either slow myself down, simply sit back and just stop proving myself to myself. But... that's not fun.

I'm not sure where I am. Does anyone know?