I am not sure.

what is beautiful and ugly any more. what is important and what is not. I push myself to come to conclusions RIGHT AWAY and it's really not necessary. 

I've been writing lots and I'm ready to start performing with my band again. I feel like winter is finally passing and it wasn't even that painful. 

i'm just looking for some

credit.

and you, who have always been there to love me. I didn't 

even 

see. 

someday you are gonna get hungry

and eat most of the words 

you just said. 

I wanted to hold 

what I knew was gold

but I couldn't see the shine. 

here I am. to myself.

here I am. to everyone else

which is more important? 

ha

ha

ha.

can't wait to go back and see all you cuties

<3

I am neither above or below

this tension. 

of everything I've loved, I see you in comparison. 

words cannot summarize the feeling of this... infinity. 

i miss the essence the most.